red headed stepchild

today i cried in the bathroom at my work because i thought my boyfriend didn't love me any more. my cat is a mouth-breather with dandruff. if i could fast forward 6 months i would be right about to start school with a nice pile in the bank and a tan. i wouldn't have to run my ass off for some half legal catering company, and it wouldn't be raining EVERY FUCKING DAY anymore.
don't get me wrong, it's not all angsty sighs and black eyeliner over here. i could just use a break, that's all. this time next month i'll be watching the whales at point reyes, and this time a month after that i'll be celebrating three years with the man i love. tomorrow we are storming the City. tonight i am wallowing in self-pity.

note*before and after pics. drama=new hair

bleak

it has been raining for so long. yesterday there was sun for the first time in weeks, and today it is wet and cold and dark and grey. again. i'm trying not to let it get me down, but there's only so much a girl can do. today i asked my gym to take me back, which was both painful and motivating at the same time. i also ordered an ab wheel. yes, i am a slave to the internet. and by god i will have amazing abs when the sun shines again.

sunny california

yesterday myself, the Boy, and some friends drove up the pch to mt tamalpais for a beautiful afternoon on the mountain and some views. instead it was cold and rainy and covered in dense fog. it was absolutely perfect. after a few minutes in a parking lot surrounded by blank whiteness we decided to drive down the road a little more to stinson beach. i saw an old woman feeding seagulls, and dead jellyfish all down the beach. when it started to rain again we ran for the truck. today was sunny and clear.