i love him

if you freak out at someone enough times, they start to expect it. like a dog that was abused, and even when you are so sweet they still flinch. i am not a person who doesn't let things affect them, and i wish to god that i were. when is it too much? when have you said too many of the bad things and not enough of the good, until the person that you love learns to expect it and starts to hold that part of them that you love the most inside where you can't critisize it?